Pause the Mother’s Journey and address why I allow the secrets of our family be known? It is no secret that my daughter has a problem with drink and drugs.
I have suffered in silence for many years, to a degree that someone who has not had their child stolen, will understand.
There are many addicts out there, many alcoholics suffering in silence. Their lives are wrecked. If they are brave enough, strong enough, they seek help and share their addiction mayhem, their chaotic lives, try to make sense of their world. Laura has given her blessing for this blog.
Laura was and is a vital human being, I am showing you that. Not a sad drunk who was easily dismissed from our lives. For every person captured by substance abuse, several people are left in their wake, grieving and suffering.
I describe my daughter’s destruction as a constant bereavement. She comes back in my life, back in my heart, then rips herself away. I am left lost and distraught.
A few people reading this blog know Laura, have loved Laura, and find it uncomfortable reading. The life of an alcoholic makes for ‘uncomfortable’ living. It is our life. The life we have been forced to live. Most readers do not know who we are, but may share our pain and gain an insight.
If raising awareness in any way helps, then I have done my job.
A Mother’s Journey continues.
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I met Laura with Rachel and Neil many years ago in Glossop I was visiting Kathryn and John, down from Scotland for the Victorian weekend. I thought Laura was a beautiful girl and it ‘s horrible to hear how this illness has overtaken all your lives. I don’t know why but I wait in anticipation every day for the next instalment of your blog, it’s fascinating reading. No one can possible know the outcome for Laura but it’s very brave of her to allow this blog to happen and for you to write it. Thinking of you all.
Margo
Thank you Margo – have received criticism – but I am doing the blog with the best of intention. I remember meeting you too – I remember your lovely friendliness – thanks for following.
Lesley
I can only ever say and believe that what you do as Bella’s mother is to help Bella…and so be it no other reason needed xxx
Thanks Dawn – people that do know us know the tradegy – know the love and support she has been given.
Lesley
Love to you all xx
Thanks x
Very sad to read this x
Don’t feel sad – the blog is good for you and me – that’s all that matters xxx
I was great friends with ‘Bella’ at secondary school and had no idea about her struggles in her adult life. We’ve recently been in touch again via FB and I wish you all the best in helping get through her recovery! It’s strange to think that we all did the same stuff at weekends when we were younger but how one persons life can take a different path than someone else’s! Sarah (was HIGHAM) x
Thanks Sarah x
I know. I’m actually getting a lot of strength & support from this. Iv told u I’m very proud of u & love u dearly. Love to everyone. Hug the boys from me xxx
Thanks for that xxx
“I describe my daughter’s destruction as a constant bereavement. She comes back in my life, back in my heart – then she rips herself away – I am left lost and distraught.” I could have written these words, and my heart goes out to you. I’m grateful to have found you through your comment on my blog, and I look forward to reading more.
Thank you
Thank you, an encouraging observation.