I wait for that good luck to return; wait for my daughter to return. Throwing away Bella’s wedding dress did not bring calm to me; it did not. A desperate measure taken by a desperate mother.
I am suspending addict child; a mother’s journey, and here is the reason:
A malicious person is quoting my website to abuse another person. I cannot accept that. I started the blog with a good heart, with good intentions – to help others in our situation. Show people, blessed not to be involved in such heartache, how easy it is to be trapped by another’s actions. Show how addiction ruins perfect healthy lives. Not all addicts are so because of their environment, because of their childhood. Not all addicts parents; family and friends are immune to the addict’s pain, if they withdraw from an addict’s life, it is to protect themselves, not use their disengagement as a form of punishment.
The blog has helped my daughter tremendously in her recovery. It has shown her another perspective, to all the years she was self obsessed, to all the years she would not listen to our pain, but thought only of her own.
I know the blog has helped other addicts reconsider the pain they have caused others.
Thank you all for following my blog. Thank you all for your support, and helpful comments.
I have been asked frequently, to put my story in book form, I may do that. But, our situation has taken us to places darker than you have yet travelled with me, and I have to decide whether I want to travel down the hardest road of my life again.
Thank you all again
Lesley Sefton – aka Bella’s mum.